Just Killing Time
Your kids watch too much TV. Your kids play on electronics too much.
You need to eat cleaner, you eat too much junk.
I can’t believe you make your kids a different meal than what you're eating. You just need to be tougher.
Don’t you know how to handle your kids. We would’ve never let kids get away with that.
Why can’t you be good at gardening? Why can’t you have beautiful hair like that? Why can’t I be a good singer?
Why does your face have brown spots on it?
Why do my ears stick out so much? I just wish I could wear my hair up in a ponytail and not feel like an elf.
All I really want is for people to like me, why don't they?
I let all these thoughts at different points of my life set up shop for way too long. Always focusing on what others opinions are of me, even if they never even held that opinion, just one I had created in my mind. All the lies I told myself by letting the enemy live in my mind for too long became a way of life, which mind you has no part in a Christian's life, a title that I wore and even proclaimed.
You see the crazy thing about your mind is it will take you wherever you let it, and it could be a complete and total lie and yet you believe every bit of it because you are blinded to the truth. You can even speak truth to others, but be blinded to your own shortcomings. Why? Because you’ve lived your life based on a lie for so long you don’t know which way is up and which way is down in your own mind. A life based on others rather than the One will leave you questioning every decision you make because there is no absolute in others; only absolute in Jesus.
It’s taken a complete breakdown of my mind to be on my way to being healed from all the poison I’ve put in for as long as I can remember. All I can do is thank God for sticking with me and giving me gems in my life along the way to remind me of what the truth is because I had forgotten.
I put on the full armor and go to battle everyday because...
I can’t believe you make your kids a different meal than what you're eating. You just need to be tougher.
Don’t you know how to handle your kids. We would’ve never let kids get away with that.
Why can’t you be good at gardening? Why can’t you have beautiful hair like that? Why can’t I be a good singer?
Why does your face have brown spots on it?
Why do my ears stick out so much? I just wish I could wear my hair up in a ponytail and not feel like an elf.
All I really want is for people to like me, why don't they?
All of these thoughts have crossed my mind at one point or another, either through my own doing or others comments. Negative and down right self-depreciating to tell the truth.
I let all these thoughts at different points of my life set up shop for way too long. Always focusing on what others opinions are of me, even if they never even held that opinion, just one I had created in my mind. All the lies I told myself by letting the enemy live in my mind for too long became a way of life, which mind you has no part in a Christian's life, a title that I wore and even proclaimed.
You see the crazy thing about your mind is it will take you wherever you let it, and it could be a complete and total lie and yet you believe every bit of it because you are blinded to the truth. You can even speak truth to others, but be blinded to your own shortcomings. Why? Because you’ve lived your life based on a lie for so long you don’t know which way is up and which way is down in your own mind. A life based on others rather than the One will leave you questioning every decision you make because there is no absolute in others; only absolute in Jesus.
It’s taken a complete breakdown of my mind to be on my way to being healed from all the poison I’ve put in for as long as I can remember. All I can do is thank God for sticking with me and giving me gems in my life along the way to remind me of what the truth is because I had forgotten.
I am reshaping my mind and taking every thought captive and making it obedient to Christ. Somehow I missed this verse all these years, but now I will never take it for granted because its been a game changer.
Yes my kids do watch TV and they do play on electronics, but they also are active, alive, and breathing little individuals that are thriving in life.
Yes I eat chips, cookies, and cakes, but I also eat fruit and veggies. Life is about balance and moderation.
Yes my kids are picky and they only eat certain things. Yes it is a struggle, but I’ll keep offering and I will keep modeling good eating habits. Hopefully they will follow suit.
Yes my kids act out, they throw tantrums, and they don’t get along sometime, but they are learning as best as I can teach them. Truth be told some adults still have a few lessons to learn too.
I am good at taking care of fake plants. “Gray hair is a crown of splendor” and although my voice isn’t smooth and easy, I sing with all I have especially when singing to the Lord.
The brown spots are a result of my last little miracle.
My girls and my husband don’t seem to mind my ears and my hearing still works.
People will come and go, but the Lord loves you and that won’t ever change. Follow Him all the days of your life.
Yes I eat chips, cookies, and cakes, but I also eat fruit and veggies. Life is about balance and moderation.
Yes my kids are picky and they only eat certain things. Yes it is a struggle, but I’ll keep offering and I will keep modeling good eating habits. Hopefully they will follow suit.
Yes my kids act out, they throw tantrums, and they don’t get along sometime, but they are learning as best as I can teach them. Truth be told some adults still have a few lessons to learn too.
I am good at taking care of fake plants. “Gray hair is a crown of splendor” and although my voice isn’t smooth and easy, I sing with all I have especially when singing to the Lord.
The brown spots are a result of my last little miracle.
My girls and my husband don’t seem to mind my ears and my hearing still works.
People will come and go, but the Lord loves you and that won’t ever change. Follow Him all the days of your life.
Every. single. thought.
I put on the full armor and go to battle everyday because...
I am worthy, I am chosen, and I am loved.
We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 2 Corinthians 10:5
With love,
Tori
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