All Things

I wanted to fall apart, but I couldn’t. Normally I meltdown in a matter of minutes and Matt comes in and “rescues” me by bringing me back to reality. But this time, I had to be the strong one. I had to be the positive one. Telling him everything was going to be just fine and that this was just another bump in the road. I had to be the one to find the silver lining it in all. Something I didn’t think I was capable of after the year I’ve had or basically the life I’ve lived. One that is filled with anxiousness and negative thinking.

Maybe I’ve said it before, but I am not the one who you want in an emergency. I might look calm on the outside but on the inside bells, whistles, and alarms are going off in unison telling me it’s time to lose it. 

What we thought was just a stomachache turned into an operation in just a couple of hours. One of the quickest turnarounds I’ve ever been a part of. 

But as soon as it became a reality, “a peace that passes all understanding” came over me. I knew it was going to be okay, I knew God had this and that His hands were all over it.

My friend told me that even though bad things happen, there’s good that comes out of it. 

Instead of a ruptured appendix, we found an inflamed one that could be taken care of with little problem.

Instead of a common wife meltdown, we found strength I didn’t know I had.

Instead of worse case scenario, we found best case scenario under the circumstances.

Instead of bitterness, we found love.

Instead of fear, we found faith. 

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”  Romans‬ ‭8:28‬ ‭

Amen.